A/N: I haven’t written a shortie in almost five
years. It doesn’t feel like it, but the
dates are there. So I’m long
overdue.
This story was originally written in the summer of 1994, when I was in college. I had a ginormous crush on my astronomy teacher (the ‘why’ eludes me because it certainly had nothing to do with his looks; he was nowhere near as fine as Renzo is) and I never missed a class. Unfortunately, even though astronomy is my favorite science, I had dreams of a psychology degree and once the science requirement was met, I moved on to my major. Never forgot my astro prof, though.
Just recently, I suffered from an extended bout of insomnia,
and during one crazy night, the essence of the story came back to me. So here it is. You may want to go here and pick a hottie of your choice so you can have a workable image of Renzo in mind as the story
unfolds.
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1.
Friday evenings were all hers and she was fiercely
protective of them. Mondays, Tuesdays
and Wednesdays were 10-12 hour days working at the university. Thursday and Friday mornings were spent on
her dissertation with no interruptions or distractions. Weekends varied between work, play, and
frustrating attempts at trying to be social when she really didn’t want to
be.
But Friday evenings…they were hers to do with as she
pleased, and she usually preferred spending them alone, listening to music,
drinking wine, reading books for pleasure or watching television. She
didn’t make or take phone calls, respond to text messages or mess around on
social media. She didn’t even like
thinking about anything scholastic. This
was her preferred agenda and had been for the past three years. Dr. Candreva always made sure she got
teaching shifts on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays so that she could keep her
schedule.
Jupiter stood in the doorway leading to her back porch, staring
out over the water. The sun was setting
and it was always calming to watch it pass over and down below the
horizon. She was sipping on a glass of frizzante Moscato and thinking about
calling Rashaun over. They hadn’t seen
each other in over a week, and Jupiter wasn’t really pressed about it. Lately, she’d been using her sometime
boyfriend for nothing more than sex, and she didn’t know if he recognized it
for what it was…and depending on her mood, didn’t care. Jupiter and Rashaun had an open relationship,
and Shaun took advantage of it as much as he could. Jupiter was too focused on her work to
entertain multiple side pieces, even though she could if she chose. Hideji and Oliver were all too keen on
wanting to be with her.
She took a deep breath of the salty air, enjoying the sound
of the waves and then took a long sip of wine.
Nina Simone’s “Blackbird” was playing and Jupiter was in a good
mood. Her dissertation writing was going
well. She submitted her most recent
chapter to her major professor on Monday and he promised to have it read within
the week. In eleven months, she would be
finished with her education and looked forward to the next phase of her life. She had a myriad of options.
Her phone rang.
Jupiter turned and looked over at the end table, where it lay. Who in the hell was calling her on Friday
night? Her friends knew her schedule and
respected it. Her colleagues would be
more likely to text, so whoever was making her phone ring was someone
unfamiliar with her schedule. Curious,
she walked over and picked up the phone.
The screen read, “L. Candreva.”
Jupiter frowned. Why
would Dr. Candreva be calling her on a Friday night? Then, suddenly, a dozen worries flew through
her mind. Something was wrong…did he not
like her chapter? Did he need her to
cover his classes? Was his family
ok? Did the college burn down? Why was he calling???
Jupiter answered.
“Dr. Candreva?”
His voice was like warm silk. “Hello, Jupiter.”
“Is everything all right?”
“Yes.”
“Well…what’s going on?”
“I need to speak with you, and I’d rather not do it over the
phone. May I come to your house?”
Jupiter bit her lip.
“Is everything ok?”
“Again, yes.
Everything’s fine. Don’t worry;
you’re not in trouble. I’m leaving
school now. May I have your address?”
Jupiter closed her eyes.
Something was most definitely not fine, but she wasn’t about to deny her
mentor the information he requested.
“I live in Catamaran Beach.
8414 Sea Spray Drive.”
There was a pause.
“You live out by the Salena?” Salena
was the South Salena Sea, and the surrounding communities were fairly upscale.
“You know where I live, sir,” Jupiter said. Then she wondered if he actually did. It wasn’t like she was forthcoming with
personal information. He could have had
the department secretary look it up, but probably thought it best to ask
Jupiter directly.
“If I did, I’ve forgotten.
I can be there in 25 minutes. Is
it all right if I come over? I know the
timing is bad; I know this is your night off, but…”
“It’s fine, Dr. Candreva.”
“All right. I will
see you soon.”
Jupiter hung up the phone and finished her wine before
closing the back door. She ran her
fingers through her curls and looked down at herself, wondering if she should
change clothes. She wore a simple sleeveless
dress, bright green and ankle-length with a split up one leg. Jupiter decided she looked good enough to
entertain her major professor, a man she used to have a wickedly intense crush
on back when she was an undergraduate at DSU.
She wasn’t the only one.
Dr. Candreva’s freshman Astronomy courses were extremely popular; full
of admirers, both male and female.
Jupiter sat up front with two other girls who were gaga for the handsome
professor but not the content. Jupiter
admitted that while Dr. Candreva was easy on the eyes and ears, she was there
for the science. The freshmen courses
were weeder courses, and by the time Jupiter matriculated to the sophomore
level for astronomy majors, the class population was reduced by 75%. She was one of three girls, and the only
black girl. By then, Dr. Candreva knew
exactly who she was.
Even though she was fairly neat, Jupiter had been raised to
make sure her home was always prepared to receive guests, no matter who they
were. She hung up her sweater, checked
the bathroom to make sure it was up to standard and closed all the bedroom
doors. It wasn’t long before she heard
his car in the driveway. Jupiter peeked
out of the window. Dr. Candreva was
getting out of his car, a gleaming black Mercedes S-600. She wasn’t surprised that he drove such a
car; Dr. Candreva was probably the most well groomed man she’d ever
encountered.
Jupiter unlocked the door and opened it when she heard him
on the stoop.
“Hi, Dr. Candreva.
Come in.”
“Thank you, Jupiter.”
He walked in the house and looked around the open space. “This is a really nice area. I’ve never been out here before.”
He made his way inside, hands in pockets as he surveyed the
room. Jupiter closed the door and
followed him in. He was wearing a black
V-neck top with the sleeves rolled halfway up, and matching slacks. Jupiter smiled to herself. The man was a whole snack and had to know it. She was woman enough to admit it to herself.
“Have a seat,” she said.
He sat on her couch.
“What are you listening to?”
“I’ve got my playlist on shuffle, but this is Aretha
Franklin’s “Something He Can Feel.”
Killer track. Would you like
something to drink?”
“Whatever it is you’re drinking,” he replied, pointing at
her wineglass.
“Sparkling Moscato.”
“Sounds good.”
Jupiter got the wine out of the fridge and another glass,
pouring as she walked over to the couch.
She handed him the glass and sat on the other end of the couch after
refilling her own glass. Jupiter crossed
her legs.
“What’s going on?”
Dr. Candreva sipped his wine. “This is good. Where did you get it?”
“The Mesa Fresca Winery out past Sugar Creek. I go once a month. They’ve got some really good wine. They also have a bed-n-breakfast and a spa. I’m going to plan a weekend there at some
point.”
“Really?”
Jupiter nodded.
Dr. Candreva looked at her for a moment and put down his
glass. “I’ll be honest with you,
Jupiter. I don’t know how to say what I
want to say, and I’m definitely not sure how you’re going to receive it.”
Jupiter’s mind went in the only direction it could. “Are you…retiring???” If he was, she was going to have to get a new
major professor, and the only one on her committee who would suffice was Dr. Hu…and she didn’t
really want Dr. Hu as her major professor. She'd have to get another professor to replace Dr. Hu if he had to step up to become her MP. Dr.
Smith was an asshole, and Jupiter had little interest in working closely with most of the physics professors in the department, but if she had to pick someone to be on her committee, it would be Dr. Yamamoto.
Dear God, what was she going to do? Dr. Candreva had been her mentor since she
was a junior at Dawnstar State. He had
taught her so much; she could not imagine anyone else attempting to fill his
shoes.
Dr. Candreva looked startled. “Retiring? Heavens, no!
I’m not old enough to retire…at least I don’t think so. I’ve got a
lot of years left.”
At Jupiter’s relieved expression, Dr. Candreva chuckled and
then became serious. “Jupiter, I
wouldn’t do that to you. I will see you
through to the end of this journey, which is just under a year or so, right?”
Jupiter exhaled roughly and nodded. “Eleven months.”
Dr. Candreva took a long drink of wine. “I wish what I had to say was that easy.”
“What is it, sir? Are
you all right?”
He put the wineglass back on the table. “I’m fine.”
Then he looked at her. “I want
you to call me by my given name, Jupiter.”
“What? Why?”
“Would you do it?”
“Why do you want me to call you by your first name, sir?”
“Would you? Please?”
Jupiter blinked rapidly.
Almost without thought, the word slipped out. “Lorenzo.”
“My nickname.”
“Renzo?”
“That’s the one.”
“But sir—”
“Please, Jupiter.”
Jupiter closed her eyes for a second and then opened
them. “Why…Renzo?”
Upon hearing his preferred nickname on her lips, Renzo
closed his eyes and sighed. “I have
wanted to hear you say my name for a very long time, Jupiter.”
Jupiter didn’t want to ask another ‘why.’ She hated feeling stupid, and asking ‘why’
always made her feel stupid, even if she needed the question answered. She hoped her expression conveyed it.
Renzo took another long drink of wine, emptying the glass. “Can I have another?”
Grateful for something to do, Jupiter grabbed the bottle of
wine and filled Renzo’s glass. She tried
to refill hers and found the bottle empty.
She stood up. “I’m
going to get another bottle, all right?”
“Fine,” he said.
Jupiter walked into her kitchen, keenly aware that Dr.
Candreva—no, Renzo—was watching
her. She opened the fridge and grabbed a
bottle of Tozaki Asju. Jupiter spied a
container of Brie and thought she needed to eat something. She’d been drinking wine since 4:30. Jupiter grabbed the cheese and put both it
and the wine on the counter. Her hands
were trembling and she didn’t know why.
“Do you mind if I make a little snack, Dr. Can—uh,
Renzo? I haven’t eaten since noon and
I’ve been drinking wine for the past hour…”
“Not at all. Do what
you need to do.” Renzo was perfectly
aware of what Jupiter was actually doing.
“Take your time.”
Jupiter turned on her oven and prepared the Brie for
toasting. She covered the round with
rosemary, cranberries, pomegranate seeds and walnuts and slid it into the
oven. She was too nervous and stunned to
talk, as her mind was fixated on what he’d said to her. I have
wanted to hear you say my name for a very long time, Jupiter.
Jupiter pulled a box of artisanal crackers down from a
cabinet. She went back into the fridge
for grapes and apples and put them on the counter. Slowly, her heartbeat was returning to
normal. Renzo got up, holding his
wineglass, and walked over to the counter.
He perched on a barstool and watched her for a few moments. Jupiter was chopping the apples methodically.
“I’m sure that was the last thing you expected me to say.”
Jupiter didn’t look at him.
“You think? What am I supposed to
say? I don’t know how to take this!”
“Then just listen to me while you fix something to eat.”
Jupiter put the knife on the counter. “Before you drop any more nukes into my lap,
have you considered the…potential issues…of whatever it is you have to say?”
“I’ve considered them for years, Jupiter. I’m not at your house ignorant nor unprepared.”
Renzo’s voice had always been mellifluous and seductive, and
the words he chose to use on Jupiter made it all the more so. “I’ve been attracted to you for a very long
time.”
Jupiter picked up the knife and finished cutting the second
apple. She put the apple slices in a
bowl and ran water over them before adding lemon. Then she started plucking the grapes off their
stems.
Renzo reached for the bottle of Tozaki. “Can you hand me an opener? I’ll take care of this.”
Jupiter opened a drawer, pulled out a wine bottle opener and
then handed it to Renzo. Then she
grabbed her wooden cutting board and arranged the grapes to one side. She got another wineglass and put it on the
counter for Renzo to fill when he opened the bottle.
“Nice brand,” he said, studying the bottle. “From the same winery?”
“Yes.”
“So just listen,” he said as he worked the bottle opener. “Time can slip by us unnoticed, you
know? We have been working together in a
mentor-mentee relationship for almost eight years. Ever since I realized you
were serious about majoring in astronomy.”
Jupiter pushed the cutting board off to one side as Renzo
successfully removed the cork and filled her glass. “I was twenty years old.”
“Believe me, once I figured out what was going on with me, I
was profoundly aware of that.”
“What was going on with you?”
“I didn’t recognize it for what it was until you enrolled in
ASTR 1660 the spring of your sophomore year.
I usually don’t have the patience to deal with young students; I teach
it because I love the material. But that
year, I looked forward to that class.
Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays, 10:00 to 10:50, you and eleven other
students, most of them boys. You always
sat in the front, in my line of sight, and I always wondered—no, hoped—that you were deliberate in your
seat selection. You used to take notes
by hand and when you were listening intently, I could always tell because you
would put the end of your ink pen in your mouth or run it over your lips. I struggled with lecturing because I thought
my admiration was obvious, so I made sure I looked at the boys in the rows
behind you.”
The smell of toasting Brie filled the kitchen and Jupiter
inhaled deeply. She swallowed and bit
her lip. “It wasn’t.”
“What wasn’t?”
“Obvious. Your
admiration wasn’t obvious, at least not to me.”
“Good. I was
uncomfortable when I realized what was actually happening, and when it became
clear…well, let’s just say I had to course correct, no pun intended.”
Jupiter smiled and put on an oven mitt. She got the cheese out of the oven and put it
on the stove before opening the aluminum foil.
“That smells amazing,” Renzo said.
“It’s going to taste amazing. I love Brie.
So versatile.” Jupiter took a
drink of wine, closing her eyes at the taste.
She opened up the artisanal crackers and spread them on the cutting
board. “Please continue.”
“After that, you took two summer classes: Black Holes,
taught by Dr. Hu, and Dr. Lau’s Advanced Introductory Physics. No, I wasn’t stalking—I overheard them
discussing you. Positively, in case you’re
curious. Anyway, we got the paperwork
for potential physics and astronomy majors at the end of the summer and I was
pleased to see your name on the list.
During one of our department meetings—the one where we decide who gets
to mentor who—I let it be known that I would be the one to guide you through
the program. And then you were sitting
across from me in my office that fall, telling me all about your love for
astronomy, your parents, and how you got your name. You were so beautiful, so innocent…and so
damned brilliant.”
Jupiter took a moment to process the man’s words. All she remembered was what a hard-ass he
was. “You were so hard on me!” She picked up the soaking apples and dumped
them into a colander. “It drove me
crazy! You weren’t nearly as hard on the
others, but with me you were merciless!
I hated you for that, but I wasn’t about to let you win!”
Renzo smiled. He had
beautiful teeth, supermodel-straight and -white, a stark contrast to his
complexion. “And look where you are now,
Jupiter. Graduating with a doctorate in
astrophysics. Co-author of an astronomy textbook for children. Published thrice over. You’ve presented at several conferences. In research circles, people know your name. Your skill set can get you into any research
institute of your choice. Where are the
others? Not where you are, not even close.
Once I really got to know you, I knew I had a diamond in the rough and
it was my job—my privilege—to make
you shine. I take my role as a mentor
and major professor seriously, Jupiter.
How I felt about you had to be contained, minimized, crushed, because I
couldn’t let it get in the way of your education and my responsibility in that
regard.”
“Eight years,” Jupiter said.
“How come you didn’t just get over it?
Eight years is a long time to lust over a person; which is what that was, Renzo. Lust, infatuation, fascination,
crush…whatever. It should have worn off
long before now.”
Renzo sipped his wine.
“It should have. It did not. And don’t think I didn’t try to make it go
away. I did everything I could. What I felt, I…unleashed…on my wife.”
Jupiter swallowed thickly and moved the cheese to the
cutting board. Hearing those words made
her just the tiniest bit jealous and she didn’t know why. She knew Renzo was married; she met his wife
Madalena at one of the department’s social events. Madalena Candreva was a plain but pretty
woman, very quiet and content to let her brilliant husband shine. Jupiter was surprised to see a man as sexy
and as fine as Renzo married to someone like Madalena, and she wasn’t the only
one.
Renzo saw the emotions flit across Jupiter’s face and sipped
his wine. “It didn’t work.”
Jupiter nervously ran her fingers through her short, thick
curls. “Wha—what didn’t work?”
“Redirecting my desire to my wife.”
She's baaaaaack!!!!
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